Week 2
Its been 2 weeks since we broke up. It didn’t bother me that much until now. For some reason these few days I been thinking about you none stop. I want to know how you are doing right now and things are going fine for you. I thought I would go clubbing and do all those other stuff now that you are out of my life. I didn’t even bother doing anything but just work and playing game everyday. I think I’m used to this time of lifestyle. I thank you you for changing me into this type of person. I became more stable after being with you. I hope that you will do better in your life and find someone that will appreciate you more. I have really bad temper, it would be better off that you find someone else. I really enjoyed the time that you gave me these two years, I would not regret. Thank you very much. 
Life

Giving up friends, money and time for you and I get what in return? Its smoking really that bad? Its bad for your health but anything else? I need it for work and for times that I’m stressed. Without a cigarette, would it really be that easy for me to go down there to see you. Where do I get all those energy from after working for so many days? You don’t know how hard I work. I already stop yelling at you and stop drinking so much. I changed a lot but every time I make like one little mistake and u will try to make a big deal out of it.

Last words to you

I’m sorry, I know I’m the worst. I hope you can find someone that don’t hit you and yell at you. I can’t keep the promises that I made to you. I really wished that the person who will walk to the end with me is you. I have grown in this one year thanks to you. Probably because we aren’t doing so good right now because the both of us isn’t mature enough. I would love to continue this relationship with you when we are older but for now, our future is more important. I don’t deserve a girlfriend as good as you right now. I love whenever I go to your house, you give me the warmth that I needed. You do my laundry,  cook and give me massage. Thank you for everything.  Sorry for putting you down all the time. You are strong,  you can go through this. I have never cheated on you in this relationship, I truely tried and gave it my best. I also hope that you really did gave me your trusted. The person that sleep with me and always by my side is you not anyone else.

To people in a relationship

Don’t bring up your boyfriend’s or girlfriend’s ex. That will never make a relationship stronger but only make it weak. Telling them about your ex will only leave a scar. Best thing to do in a relationship,  don’t tell them your pass.

The End

I haven’t been in tumblr for a while now and I don’t remember the last time that I was here. I’m here today to type something that I want to remember that was given to me by someone special. I have a girlfriend, a good girlfriend but I don’t know how to treat her right. I regret that I ever been with her and cause her all these pains. Pains thats going to be staying with her for a long time. Couple years ago I feel like a nobody. All I do in the year of 2009 and 2011 is drink. I don’t care about my family or anything. Now after I met her, she changed my life. I remember the first time seeing her was at sushiland and I show no interested in her. I don’t think she is pretty or anything. I made a bet with a friend to go after her. She was nothing but a bet to me. Now after a year, she meant everything to me. She is my whole happiness and sadness. Whenever she is happy, I am happy and whenever she is sad, I am sad. Probably i like being happy and don’t like the feeling of being sad. I always yell at her and get mad at her for being sad. I never try using some sweet ways to cheer her up. Now she left me and I’m all alone again. I have everything in a second and lost everything in another second. I want to be back with her but I choice to leave. I don’t want to hurt her anymore, I don’t want her to be depressed. I want her to become happy and find someone better. She have something better to do, I don’t want this relationship to also affect her college. I told you that I was fine but I feel really painful right now. I really wish you could be by my side. I love you. I truly love you. I hope you forever happy. You will always be in my heart. 

Spring Break

Spring break was just fill with tears. I got an answer from SD that she will go to prom with me and then the next day later she said she can’t go with me. I got mad at NT for not coming out and hang out with me. She can’t blame me, she told me to come pick her up and I stole my dad’s car to come get her. She lived like 15-20 minutes away from me and when I got there, she don’t want to hang out no more. What BULLSHIT, I think we’re better off as friends because when you like someone no matter how busy you are, you will find time to hang out with that person. 

3/16/11

Went to the Casino with Tony, Jason, and Joe. I was happy for the first time losing money :) I actually can control myself and not as addicted as I was before. After casino we went to Denny’s for some strawberry lemonade and pancakes. We were having a contest see who could eat an drink more -_- I only ate 2 pieces of pancakes and drank 3 strawberry lemonade. I was texting NT at that time see if she is asleep. I was so tired that night but I was manage to talk to her until 4:30am so crazy……I missed the time that we used to talk, hope everything would go well between us :)

3/14/10

Today was a pretty good day :) walked to SD’s house and went to school with her. I think she is really pretty today, so gorgeous ^_^ In my mind I kept on thinking should I ask her to prom :) we would make a pretty good couple because she is shorter than me :) But it seem like I got stuck in the best friend position -_- Skipped the day with Tommy, Shiya and Zhida. It was awkward watching Tommy and Shiya kissing, making out in the back of my car. I decided, I’m not gonna skip with them ever again. I came back and went into mrs. B’s class to see NT. She said I look older -_- I said because you haven’t seem me lately, we should hang out. She said ok…… I was freaked out because usually she’ll tell me maybe or no. Day was excellent until I saw ML at work making me wanna FML -_-

Why why why ZzZz

I almost had you completely erased from my mind, WHY WHY WHY you need to appear at my work place today…..I hate you, why you give me this guilty look like I did something wrong. Is not my fault, is all YOU!

Ask who…..

SD don’t have a date to prom yet…I can ask her to go but I want to ask NT. If NT say no when I ask her, I don’t want to go ask SD. I don’t want her to be the second choice, she deserves better than that. I really want to go with you NT but I dunno what you been up to lately. We haven’t been texting, haven’t been talking -_- Have you found someone that make you feel loved yet? FUCK THIS I’M ASKING NT FIRST!